April 23, 2010

The way I am.

I'm so lost right now. Like I feel like I don't really know who I am. For those of you who know pinksugarichigo or have her as a friend, you may recall her posting a blog about something similar to this. I am in no way copying her dilemma or anything like that. We both actually coincidentally are in the same state right now.

I just don't feel as creative as I used to. Honestly, before during high school and sometime after, my creative juices were always flowing. I was filled with ideas, and I put them to great use. Whether through art, making/editing videos, photography, graphic designing and even music. It made me happy and I felt as if I could be going somewhere with it. The past few years have been a rocky one for me where sacrifices were made here and there. I am happy with my life but personally, I feel lost. I feel like I don't know exactly who I am.

My room walls are currently green (as you can see in my pictures). I've painted my walls lime green back in 2000, mainly to match my Weezer poster (they are one of my favorite bands). I felt that through out high school and a little after, my room was the main area for my inspiration. I was full of color and I was into cutesy junk overload. It was clearly seen in the things I made that I love love loved colors.

I started getting into a more 'oshare' type of style, I'd say a couple years back. I felt myself maturing in a way and transitioning into more simple, classy, vintage type of stuff. This was especially seen through the way I dressed.

I think I've figured out who I am, and I'm happy with it. All is well right? well...

I still feel the creative juices flowing in me and I'm longing to make more art, music, videos, photography..but I feel like there's a block.

This may seem weird, but I think the first step to removing that block is to repaint my walls.

I guess whenever I walk into my room now, I feel like I'm forever in my teen years, and that shouldn't be the case. It's time to grow up.

We'll see if I'm right. Hopefully I can get to painting my room soon and I'll let you know.

P.S. if you haven't noticed, I changed my blogspot username :3


  1. All I can say to this is...what color?!

  2. lol! well i actually just came back from home depot, and i got a cream color. mmmmmmm. haha! i feel renewed already! the color is called belgian cream...double mmmmmm